The Soul Truth… The story of two halves…!
All about me…
Why was the emotional body, mental body and the physical body wounded through this journey…? How did the templates inside the anatomy become dysfunctional…? Why did the emotional cycle project fear…? Why did the scales between the ethics of control and manipulation become out of balance…? What is the need to go all in, when the waves came crashing through the anatomy…!
The story will write itself…!
“God doesn’t call the qualified. He qualifies the calling…”
Welcome to this week’s 100th blog…! This theory has evolved through these few years into the profound depths of wisdom that retains inside the anatomy…! Hopefully the 100th blog will mark a significant moment inside this philosophy… As I pledged for social justice in the humanity blog… Today’s blog will be written for the purpose that serves the body of knowledge… However, this week’s blog is going to be different… The body of knowledge needs to come to light and without going into the core of the heart centre, I will be failing to seek my truth without highlighting the reasons how I learnt to overcome the magnificence of my fear…? When you have nothing to lose, this is always the best time to voice your truth… I lost the ability to speak – and found it really difficult to communicate what I was going through during my crisis…! I had it all… Therefore, I may disclose many hidden untold truths into this blog for the purpose of gaining life inside the body of knowledge…! What a phenomenal journey this has been…! In order for me to move forward I need to release the truth that no longer serves my purpose…! It’s all about me today… for the purpose of my investigation inside this philosophy I need to enhance further… Because my place is not inside the failures of democracy and this 2d mindset… I’m a beacon of light, my higher self has manifested this truth… I’m the writer of the body of knowledge…! I can see the door of happiness… The question here is – does this door open for me naturally, or do I walk straight through, because I’ve made it this far…? Or do I earn my way by releasing the truth…! The by-product of the manifestation is about being content and purposeful… and about having trust in the universal law…! Because I know my eternal mother is watching… I’m giving her the reports of my investigation… and I’m truly blessed that I had the opportunity to be my own stardust material through the chaos of my social conditionings – but she raised me, so I’m nothing less than a warrior…!
I learnt so many life lessons that I was reluctant to deal with in my past… But I finally made that A to B journey and often, I was walking on a tightrope to follow this path… with two little children, who are the strongest souls… They had to watch their own mother fight the system and the injustice pledged by the opponent, while the world continued to isolate my birth rights… I was trying to save them from the ethics of control and manipulation, as I was trying to protect them, my guard was breaking, but we all persisted… Trying to keep each other safe, while I went through my breakdowns and breakthroughs, which didn’t come easy… I left my kids, safe and protected in a different room, while I broke in my privacy… Everyone was torn away from me for some reason or the other… But my children became witness to a world of hostility that their young minds should never have been able to witness… At a time when they needed structure and love, they witnessed hardship and suffering… We were a team through this journey… At the same time learning to be grateful and humane, while we waited and waited for my manifestation to rein in, delays through these manmade complications set me back, and this trajectory became delayed because of one’s self-centredness… There were times when I thought I was going to get stuck inside this allegory of the cave…! The rat race society had no empathy, no one is capable of taking any responsibility… As every organisation was battling their own finances, my truth was getting trampled on, I must have been the scapegoat, but my eternal mother didn’t let me go… I’ve often heard that when the world forsakes you, god will embrace you… I won’t deny this truth… because when all my external influences were torn away… my internal strength became stronger… We have all been processed to be part of this drip injected dopamine feed… Our rewards come to us in drops… little by little, while we sweat blood to achieve these goals… The by-product of our manifestation is like a tap, and the water flows through our whole anatomy…! In our happy chemicals the flow is like a current, every atom connects building the architecture of our internal conditionings… Every action from here forward is about forming our path through the trajectory of our decisions…
“There is another old poet whose name I do not now remember who said, ‘Truth is the daughter of Time…”
Therefore, set me free from this chaos and let me lead my path of freedom… My time is up, I’ve come out of the allegory of the cave to tell my story…!
How much longer can l be restrained for inside these conditionings, because your observations are not indicating anything…? While I’m waiting for the story to unfold naturally, I’m getting stuck through my old self and new self…! Therefore, I’ve got no choice, but to the breakthrough…! The whole situation has been so confusing, but this must be that fork in the road… Therefore, only I can make this decision for my birth right… Through the process of writing, I was always trying to control my anxiousness through this odd world that’s surrounding me… Being creative I’m different… but I’m not abnormal… Being intellectual has come with its own challenges – when your different and have different ways of seeing things – people around you become curious, they either leave you in the pits to see what happens to you or they want to put you in a science lap – and experiment about your uniqueness…! Why don’t I engage with the world around me…? I’ve had to remain isolated because the system hasn’t been able to draw the line in the sand… Everything always felt open ended… that left a venerability around me for underhand harassment… I don’t understand the complexity of the world around me and often think it’s unnecessarily complicated…! There have been times where life’s circumstances and my own fears have kept me in a straitjacket, stagnated and unable to move out of the constraints and confinements of my social conditionings… There were times I was forced to stay in conditions, where my creativity was threatened… Taking that journey towards freedom wasn’t easy – I never knew how many failures there were in our system and how we are all going through the same collective conditioning…? Not knowing where the commitment of the anatomy was taking me – it was all about having faith and trust… Watching the world fall apart around me was the most fearful truth, while I tried to find my stability…
“Truth is stranger than fiction, but it is because Fiction is obliged to stick to possibilities; Truth isn’t…”
There were so many obstacles, challenges, tails and tribulations and for the past 2 and half years, this chaos had been endless and enduring… There really was no light under the tunnel apart from the light that was within me… The battle between my social conditionings and stardust material was about wanting to be in a place where I felt free and able to enhance my creativity – that’s all… There were times where I wanted to walk back because I thought I couldn’t carry on any further, but life’s circumstances gave me no choice but to move forward… It’s part of my birth right to be me…! While trying to escape one tragedy to another, I ended up fighting many battles that were obstructing my freedom…! I fell into so many complications, the journey was endless… There was often no time to really heal from one tragedy, before the next complication came my way…! While I was trying to find my beacon of light – I was forced to stay in a manipulative relationship, in a place where I wasn’t happy… As times became complicated, my escape was all about my survival… Not sure where I was heading, I knew I had to get away… In this democratic society I thought that I would find my solace, but I was far from it… I wanted to break free, I was forced into isolation… I was defamed because of my truth, gas lighted many times throughout this time because others didn’t want me to move on… Loved ones pulled away from me because I could no longer deal with this 2d mindset… This constantly went on for years, with people trying to open my door in the middle of the night… A certain individual randomly approaching me during my court cases, continued to stress that my life was in danger, if I pledged to stand up for my birth rights… But no law was broken… in this democratic society… Therefore, these circumstances continued, while I was trying to nurture my children… Solicitors enhanced this austerity by following their greed to create manipulative circumstances by being brought, by the opponent, as I was being forced down to my knees… If this was possible, then this jackal and hyde character would have won… but this war was about my birth rights… Here on this mother earth, I learned to fight my battles…! Though I found some truly amazing people on the way… Hats off to my barrister, who has the heart of gold, without her intervention… the system would have seemed like the darkest place in the world…! However, the law of the courts wasn’t mistaken, the judges retained their truth… and gave me this opportunity to be free, around this complex problem that surrounded me throughout my transformation… But there were still so many more bumps in the road – the path got a little easier… I play the role of Tintin in this story, I’m always on an adventure and Thomson and Thompson are always one step behind me…! At least I know I’m protected…! Thank you for securing my surroundings – while I learned to sustain my inner truth… Why did my one moment of wanting to run away from a manipulative relationship, lead into the whole system trailing behind me…? For these two and half years, I didn’t only write the body of knowledge, I went through the whole system, and so many pitfalls…! The law is not blind… Thank goodness it isn’t – but it’s certainly confined by complicated laws and legislations… But the attempt of the opponent trying to enforce me into a pit – that doesn’t belong to me, needs to come to an end, now… I’m no longer knocking on the doors of the system because someone else’s obsession to destroy me was decided to be a case of unfortunate events… Regardless of what this does to my birth rights…? This structural system has no empathy for our beating hearts…! I have no choice but to realise the truth… I’m no longer waiting for the change; I’m learning to orchestrate the change…!
In this time, I managed to survive and write the profound details inside the body of knowledge… I managed to keep my kids safe and secure… but as I head off into the future… the need to let go of the past or old self is evitable not only for my growth and expansion but for this new path that’s waiting for me…! I unlocked the internal mechanisms of the anatomy to be free not to remain stagnated…
“Character is like a tree and reputation like a shadow. The shadow is what we think of it; the tree is the real thing…”
Note to self…
I don’t know what happened to me in the court room that day… but thank you for giving me the chance to express whatever I was experiencing… It was difficult to process and understand… I didn’t feel ready to handle all this truth, but the time was right… I was in-between my head and heart… Unsettled with what I was feeling and what was happening around me… I don’t know why I was talking about the Vietnamese and I don’t know why I spoke about people dying… I don’t know why I said Harry and Megan were going to lose their titles… But the 31st of March might mean something or be significant… It was coming through me… that’s all I know – but this is my truth… I’ve come to the end of this journey and wished to be free from this endless hardship… I’ve already made my choice; I’m walking through this doorway to be part of the by-product of my manifestation… This is my birth right…! After watching so many doors close through this system, the gravity of this process opened the door of my by-product of my manifestation… The body of knowledge needs to go further, stagnation will only delay the process…! This unproductive stagnation is keeping me inside the cycle of suffering, but my calling is about healing those around me, who have endured needlessly in the same way…! The failures inside our democracy in this 2d mindset is holding me back…! By placing the heart of the matter inside the core aspect of this internal mechanism, this philosophy might take flight and start breathing, through the expansion and contraption cycle – and perhaps the by-product of my manifestation might start working…! And this forth coming charity # say no to manipulation might materialise, I see this problem day in and day out…! People can get the right help that they require through their own dark days… that the body of knowledge had to go through… by learning to unlock this internal system…? It survived through this pendulum theory and found healing through this beacon of light… to learn how to overcome fear…? Before allowing the truth to be released…! But no law was broken by the perpetrator… This journey is for the purpose of showing my children that kindness does exist… I went through this journey to teach them about the beauty of life… As a mother this is not the world, I want my children to witness… Set me free…! The door that I knocked on was the door of the universal law… and about the commitment of the anatomy… The just didn’t punish me, as much as the world penalised me during the time of my transformation… and I’m ready to fly…! My mother will light my path…! The story will write itself… Humanitarians are born out of conflict… No one can stop me from speaking my truth…! I was birthed through this process… I wonder how many people will claim this righteous, from this point onwards but I am prepared to fight for justice…! This was all about my survival… my beacon of light and my truth… It’s time for my soul to move on… my ordeal is over.
“My religion is based on truth and non-violence. Truth is my God. Non-violence is the means of realising Him…”